2016 was a weird year for me. Lots of things changed. Both for better and worse.
Photographically, I think I grew a lot this year. I didn’t post much however, and have become quite lazy about it. Hence the guest posts lately. I’m glad Bin has being doing that.
As per usual, I changed cameras a lot this year. I wrote a blog post in the summer about how I was going to use the same camera and same lens for a year. That camera died shortly after. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe I’m not meant to be like that.
Some of my favourite photos from this year were taken during a very short period. There was a two month span when I was shooting a lot. Otherwise, I barely touched a camera. Sad, really.
Truth of the matter is, I went through a rough break up and have been having a bit of a hard time with that. Sucks, but is what it is. We move on. The world keeps turning.
One of the themes of this have has been friends. I haven’t kept many people close. Maybe ever. This year, I have found that friends really are the most important people in our lives. Even the friends I had ignored when I was in a relationship were the ones that were first to come to my side when I needed them. Brilliant thing, that.
I’ve spent much of this year feeling as though I was being smothered. The beginning of this year, anyway. I didn’t really know what was next or why I was doing was I was doing. I didn’t want to work. I didn’t want to take photos. I didn’t really want to do anything.
I’m not sure what changed or when. I’m still having a hard time. Every time I feel like I’ve started to figure it out I realize I’m just as far away from doing so.
Feels like being on the ring train. You know, the ones that do a loop around the city. I’m not sure where to get off. Not sure I want to.
I just wanna ride.
Lots of good things have happened this year as well. I was featured on Lensculture. I co-founded the Instagram group @Wearethestreet. I’m proud of both.
That being said, I can’t seem to shake the funk of this year. Can’t seem to break free of the feeling that I’m treading water. That I’m going through the motions.
I road the train too many times. I took the bus too many times. I wasted too much money, gained too much weight. I traveled too much, but not really enough. I played too much, worked too little. Worked too much and felt like I hardly played at all.
I suppose that is it. Destined to ride the ebbs and flows. I don’t have much to say aside from;
fuck you 2016. Go stuff yourself.
On a slightly different note, I have decided in 2017 to dedicate myself to a project I worked on for a while in 2014 called 여자들. It examines the double standards that exist in Korea in relation to women and their sexuality. More on it in the coming weeks plus a post on my new years resolutions and one on a trip to Busan I’m taking this week.